今天的freshmen lunch,不错..
给一个机会增进了和新朋友之间的感情..
也给了我一个机会再次记起..
我该努力的事..

Mr. Goh 说的话,总能让我心里掀起一股激动..
我们不能因为大学容易进了,
而忘了大学真正的价值..

大学,对我们家而言..
也真的不是容易的一件事..
或许,家里两位姐姐都不曾上过大学..
而我成了第一个上大学的孩子..
这一点,是我觉得让妈妈感到欣慰的..

小时候的记忆,我都忘了..
但我想,妈妈却始终记得..
她还记得,小时候我激动地说
“我要戴四方帽” 的稚气..

多年以后,一切没变..
上大学,始终是我的梦想..
我真的真的觉得感谢..
这一切,都在我的梦想当中..

看着今天一个个上台的优秀生..
我在想,两年后,我会是其中一个吗..?
如果妈妈看见我上台的那刻,
不知道她会怎样呢..?

好久好久没回家了..
我好想念妈妈,真的很想..
好想靠着她,对她撒娇..

很多人都问过我,
才两个小时半的车程..
为什么我都不常回家..?

对啊.. 才两个小时半..
为什么我都不常回家..?
或许,是我害怕回家后再离开家的感觉吧..
我很怕妈妈目送我离开的影子..
我很怕巴士开动的那种感觉..

我是那么容易感触的人..
我真的很讨厌那种一次次离开的感觉..
我讨厌坚强,讨厌忍住泪水..

我很爱这个女人..
真的真的很爱她..
她很blur很容易紧张,但很可爱..
她常听不懂我说的话,但还是很可爱..

最近我们都发觉,
妈妈的记忆力越来越差..
理解能力也开始越来越弱..
我很怕很怕..
很怕妈妈一个人在家的日子..

我最近常在想..
没有弟弟,没有我们..
她一个人在家时候,都在做些什么事..?
她会不会寂寞..? 会不会孤单..?

饿了,她会自己煮饭给自己吃吗..?
她一天还会不会喝很多的咖啡..?
她骑着摩托还会不会莽莽撞撞..?
夜深了,她会不会一个人还在赶工..?

我想,的确是时候回家了..
回家看看这个我最爱的女人..

4 comments:

if i were u,
i'll go back frequently..
u said u r afraid of the moment when u have to leave home again or when the bus moves..
then do u know tat u r actually focusing on your own feeling only..
do u think of your mother..
do u know maybe she hopes u to go back and share moments with her..
and everything keeps on changing..
u never know what'll happen next..
so just appreciate the chance u have now..
go home when u feel too..
that's simple..
no need to think so much..

*that's all my opinion only.. no offense..

20 June 2010 at 21:18  

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20 June 2010 at 21:18  

^^...
I am here to support whatever decision you made~~..
While you are lonely ,
Please remember you have a bunch of friends around you^^..
You must believe that all the happiness and luckiness are around you and your mother... and these will make it come true~~
Just like what you have been dreaming to have a chance to study in unversity~~.. you believe and this occurs in your real life now..
Just believe what you want~~..
We two together gambateh for our studies ^^... hope one day both of us have chance to give a speech on the stage~~..^^

PS: smile always~~

23 June 2010 at 21:56  

sorry... need to add more smtg..
I am happy that you got to enroll this uni ... and i am glad to have you as friend^^

23 June 2010 at 22:00